for the first time in your life you feel freedom from responsibility and worry. the direct influencing factors affecting you have diminished and you can start to reintegrate into a more regular world. you feel uplifted and energised. you stroll with a smile. then you discover everything has changed. you catch up on information and slowly a new wave of disillusionment washes over you. you feel claustrophobic and trapped. you realise that when you return to your responsibility this is all waiting for you and it influences you.
your freedom is enclosed and not real, and there is no escape.